Bad Luck
This past couples of weeks have just been brutal for me. I don’t know why, but whatever could’ve possibly gone wrong, went horrible wrong. I don’t know if I’ve just been cursed with bad luck, but it’s really starting to get on my nerves. It’s changed my attitude, and I’m always worrying what else is going to happen.
I’ve been sick with bronchitis for over a week now (coming close to two now come Monday if things don’t shape up), I’m getting irritated by my family (yeah I know family is all we have and blah-blah-blah…), and I’m just tempted to just go offline until things shape up. No phone, no computer (except at work of course), and just go completely Amish. I feel like technology itself is just taking a turn for its worse on me. I’m never alone without someone bugging me by text messages, phone calls, or e-mails. It’s nice that the Internet has enabled us in many ways to communicate with family and friends much easier, but it really does come with a price, and that is the loss of all privacy.
I think this all has to do with me living on the west coast. People must feel that since I now live so far away, they have to communicate with me all the time to see if I’m okay. I’m okay and have never been better in my entire life. I’ve explained this many of times, yet its their non-stop concern that is bugging me. It’s as almost as if I’m living back at home again, growing up. My family needs to realize that I’m no longer a teenager anymore. I’ve been living on my own since I was 17. I’ll be turning 23 later this year and I have many years of experience being independent now.
I now I must sound bitter in this blog post and I do apologize. This is really the only method I’ve resulted into releasing what’s been building up in me the past few weeks. I’ve made the commitment on leaving everything and everyone behind back East and starting a new life. Now that I’ve been settled here on the West coast for almost nine months now, I think they need to know that I’m okay and that I don’t plan on returning anytime in the near future. I’ve made up my mind that this is where I want to be in life.
They decided to renew my contract at work for a few more months which is a sigh of relief since now I know I’ll be employed and making money until I return to school. I’ve fully decided to go along with starting a new career. Sure, school is twice as expensive out here than it is back East, but I don’t want to go back there. It’s weird because money has never bothered me in the past; yet, since I moved out here, that’s all I worry about is money, money, money. After a long discussion with my sister, she really did point out a reasonable fact that is, even if I decided to go with a student line of credit through my bank, it’s at least going to a good reason and that is to further my education. It could’ve been for a down payment on a car, a mortgage for a house, but considering I won’t be getting either of those two at least for another 10-20 years, this is a justifiable reason to, in a way, tack on some more debt to what I already currently owe now in student loans. I’ve already been accepted, I’m already on the waiting list to move into the student residential building on campus, why would I want or need to back out now? It’s a win-win situation and nothing but good things will come out of it, and for what? To add on another $10,000 bones on my existing student loan? Bah. I worry too much. This is going to be great!
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